Here we go again.

Tomorrow marks the 5th week of me in SCS. Before this week ends, I have to summarise about what I learnt this week. Learning how to navigate through from one point to another, reading the map using a compass and protractor. Got lost in the day when I'm supposed to find my checkpoint..... Got 2 out of 4 right for the checkpoints. Night navigation is really not a joke, total darkness with just the moonlight above you for the light to lead. Using a compass to find one checkpoint, there was a heavy downpour 1 hour before our start of our activity. Muddy trails everywhere, it was like crossing a pool of milk chocolate. Was able to use the torchlight but had to be tactical had to use it with minimum light. Sounds contradicting aye ? But yeah it's true. Ended the week with the navigation test and I did quite well, not a good score but better than average. Followed by IPPT, got gold, but wasn't happy. Slowed down by 1 sec from a 9 mins 9 secs during the category test to 9 mins 10/11 secs. Wanted to get the best PT by a timing of 8 mins 45 secs and less but I failed. Everyone is saying that my timing is already gold why aim to be even faster. No one knows why do I feel so disappointed, it's not about competing against others but myself. Reason being if I could run a timing of 8 mins 55 secs in BMT, why not faster ? Train in order to be better, pushing one limits to the maximum. This is why I'm really disappointed..... Every single training I put in effort, sweat all for that one performance to excel, but.... I failed. It's really really disappointing, demoralising. But nonetheless, I will do my best in the professional term when foundation term ends. Another 3 more weeks to end this foundation term. I still hold the hope of crossing over to become an officer. 

Next week is going to be hell, field camp, 3D2N. Yes, it may seem short but that's not a good thing either. Short period of time for field camp means everything got to be on the ball, regimentation and discipline will be more strict, standard of things to be completed would be increased as we are leaders to be quoted from our Master Sergeant. I'm already prepared for the worst to come, rain, muddy trails everywhere, muddy uniforms, boots and expect us to be super duper muddy. One of the worst thing is after the field camp, going to end on the Saturday. But they said we were going to book out on the Sunday morning and book back in by Sunday night. How eff-ed up is that !?!?!?!? But nonetheless, the only thing I'm looking forward to the month of December ! Waiting for that moment.....................