Here we go again.

Tomorrow marks the 5th week of me in SCS. Before this week ends, I have to summarise about what I learnt this week. Learning how to navigate through from one point to another, reading the map using a compass and protractor. Got lost in the day when I'm supposed to find my checkpoint..... Got 2 out of 4 right for the checkpoints. Night navigation is really not a joke, total darkness with just the moonlight above you for the light to lead. Using a compass to find one checkpoint, there was a heavy downpour 1 hour before our start of our activity. Muddy trails everywhere, it was like crossing a pool of milk chocolate. Was able to use the torchlight but had to be tactical had to use it with minimum light. Sounds contradicting aye ? But yeah it's true. Ended the week with the navigation test and I did quite well, not a good score but better than average. Followed by IPPT, got gold, but wasn't happy. Slowed down by 1 sec from a 9 mins 9 secs during the category test to 9 mins 10/11 secs. Wanted to get the best PT by a timing of 8 mins 45 secs and less but I failed. Everyone is saying that my timing is already gold why aim to be even faster. No one knows why do I feel so disappointed, it's not about competing against others but myself. Reason being if I could run a timing of 8 mins 55 secs in BMT, why not faster ? Train in order to be better, pushing one limits to the maximum. This is why I'm really disappointed..... Every single training I put in effort, sweat all for that one performance to excel, but.... I failed. It's really really disappointing, demoralising. But nonetheless, I will do my best in the professional term when foundation term ends. Another 3 more weeks to end this foundation term. I still hold the hope of crossing over to become an officer. 

Next week is going to be hell, field camp, 3D2N. Yes, it may seem short but that's not a good thing either. Short period of time for field camp means everything got to be on the ball, regimentation and discipline will be more strict, standard of things to be completed would be increased as we are leaders to be quoted from our Master Sergeant. I'm already prepared for the worst to come, rain, muddy trails everywhere, muddy uniforms, boots and expect us to be super duper muddy. One of the worst thing is after the field camp, going to end on the Saturday. But they said we were going to book out on the Sunday morning and book back in by Sunday night. How eff-ed up is that !?!?!?!? But nonetheless, the only thing I'm looking forward to the month of December ! Waiting for that moment.....................

Don't know what is this about either :|

It has been a super super long time since I last blogged about anything... Wanted to blog about my POP (Passing Out Parade) from BMT but I was too lazy spending my block leave with the things I loved to do and stuff. Basically, after POP, I got the posting to SCS (Specialist Cadet School) at Pasir Laba Camp. Knowing that result was heartbreaking for me, couldn't get in to OCS, felt very disappointed. Nevertheless, I met most of my BMT mates here in my new company at SCS, Juliet Company. Everything was different, no more BMT style. Not as fun as I thought it would be, more mundane and everything was being very serious. Though we have a lot of 'freedom' here, our commanders expect alot from us. It's a mutual thing. Fell super sick recently and I didn't like that feeling. Feeling lethargic... aching from head to toe... that feeling, I'll never forget. Read Sze Rong's blog and it somehow cheered me up because her blog was amusing, the way she wrote it was so fairytale like hahaha. But once again, I glad to be back in training. Booked in today feeling lethargic ZZZZ. It's like another time of the week. Next week is going to be hell for most of us because of field camp. Although it's only 3D2N, but I know they expect alot alot from us. Just going to go through this shit and get done and over with. In the mean time, I will still hold my chance of crossing over to become an officer. Will do my best but but but if I'm not selected it's okay. God 's has a plan for everyone of us. I want to meet up with Sze Rong once again to have our Christmas Starbucks together. This bestie of mine is just so carefree to be with :) Want to hear her stories of she travelling her adventures through US. Excited and can't wait to meet up with her :)

Quote to end the day ' When the tough gets going, the going gets tough ' Hoping that this week will be a good one. Always looking forward to the day where we always book out because that's the only time where we really get to relax and enjoy. I really need a getaway now. Flying to Switzerland now would be the perfect place to be in. The mountains, scenery, mountains, exploring there would be perfect. I have no idea why I continued typing despite me saying that this would end but... haha. Alright till then, signing off..